Travel for Pennies

I’m really uncertain as to why I’m flying into New York, but my children requested that I leave France and that I need to have a divorce ceremony. They told me this ceremony will help me begin to heal and forgive, but what struck me the most is they told me that they would feel so much better if the entire family, my ex-husband, my children and myself participate. They made a reservation for me at a New York USA hotel for a week. They told me that way, I’ll be able to prepare for the ceremony. They wouldn’t give me anymore details than that, but they did assure me that there intentions are to not bring my ex and me back together, which was a worry of mine, but to honor our decision to divorce.

I really wasn’t looking forward to seeing my ex-husband, after all, I’m still in love with him, it was he who wanted the divorce, he had found and fell in love with another woman. He plans to marry her by the end of the year. I’m still hurting, my wounds are open and not healing. But, my children mean the world to me, so here I am, flying into New York to once again face the man who has hurt me more deeply than I ever thought I could be hurt. Betrayal, is more exact. That’s why I moved back to France, I just couldn’t face that fact of seeing him with his new love and being happy. I have to admit, moving to France hasn’t helped at all.

A few days after my arrival, my children picked me up and drove me to a church. This is where the divorce ceremony will take place. In the day leading up to this, my children told me what to expect and how to prepare. Their love and concern for me is the only thing that kept me here and their assurance that I will somehow miraculously feel so much better, somewhat made me want to do this ceremony. As we arrived, I saw my ex-husband waiting for us outside, he was not with his fiance’, this ceremony was strictly for the immediate family. My heart was going crazy, but after the divorce ceremony, my children spoke these healing words: We affirm you in the new covenant you have made, one that finds you separated, but still caring for one another and wishing each other good will. One that enables you to support and love your children. One that helps you ease the pain you feel. On behalf of the church which blessed your marriage, we now recognize the end of your marriage. We affirm you as single persons among us, and we pledge you our un-dying support as you continue on with your new path and your new life.

I was so amazed that my husband and I raised such beautiful children who understood just how much this ripped apart our souls, that I couldn’t help but feel an out pouring of love when I thought I’d never love again.

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